Monday, May 5, 2008
Cinco de Mayo
What a great day its been today. I have probably had one of the greatest days in a long time today, thanks to my great friend Phillip, today was his birthday so we went and played a round of golf and then played some tennis. I also got to have dinner with him and Anita and their lovely daughters. Its been great.
Well I hope everyone elses day has been great also, I am quite tired and have a vicious farmers tan.
muchos contento.
Saturday, April 26, 2008
Opportunities
On the upside I am looking forward to moving in with Adam and Ben, I think it would be excellent to have some Christians guys like them to keep me accountable and all around just keep me in line. Its been stressful moving back to Charlotte and although it has been nice to be able to be back with my family I did feel like it was a bit of a step backwards moving back in with my parents. So I am quite excited about living with these guys both of them have already been such a great impact in my life through our small group. And Im really excited to see how my relationship with Christ will grow with being surrounded by these great guys and these new opportunities put in front of me.
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
waiting...
So whats new for me?
non-good things.
Im stressed with finals and school and Degree programs and transfer options and of course the Squadron has to put pressure on me about a new tracking program to follow all the training requirements needed to deploy and recur to stay current in the Squadron.
and I have a test in Mythology class tomorrow morning that I'm not so keen on.
good things.
Jennica continues to be a great support in my life in challenging me when it comes to my shortcomings and issues that I have in my heart.
Phillip McCart has re-instilled a passion I once had for tennis in me. I now feel the urge to play the game with whomever will put up with me.
Elevation is continuing to blow my mind and challenge me to continually grow closer to Christ.
and that is that.
"Ending a sentence with a preposition is something up with which I will not put." - Winston Churchill
Monday, February 11, 2008
“I am doing a great work, and cannot come down!”
“The laborers carried on their work with one hand supporting their load and one hand holding a weapon.” Nehemiah 4 : 17
“Never give in, never give in, never; never; never; never - in nothing, great or small, large or petty - never give in except to convictions of honor and good sense” - Winston Churchill
Friday, December 7, 2007
on the edge of control
I feel a little out of control, it’s been a weird week for me. I started a new job at the hospital, a lot of running around to be done for that. I do enjoy seeing the patients and being able to work in a hospital again but at the same time it is always a little stressful starting a new job, and then there are my upcoming exams. I just feel exhausted and drained all the time, and it feels as if I have to fight and battle to hear from God, I have also struggled to pick up and read my bible this week. It’s weird, like I’m in a funk or something. But Rob at small group made a point that made sense to me, maybe God can let me go on my own, God doesn’t need to hold my hand anymore. I am His child and he now is allowing me to walk on my own.
Perhaps it is not all easy and fun Sundays when you are a christian. So I have been reading through the two books of Samuel, I really like David. He wasn’t perfect and he messed up a lot. He was chased by the Philistines and Saul’s army. He lived in caves and struggled emotionally. But for all that was wrong with David he loved God and God cared for him. I take comfort in the fact that no matter how rough a week I may have and no matter how much I mess up or whether I am encircled by my enemies, my Lord will save me, he is perfect, and he will not let me go.
“we will not be the last, we will not be the lost.”
Sunday, November 25, 2007
we look so good...but looks can be deceiving
Yet another week and I’m here. Feeling reinvigorated by King’s message today, he is an excellent speaker. I am familiar with the David and Goliath story but his closest men I didn’t know much about. I am quite impressed at how God orchestrates the plans he sets in motion. It amazes me how little I know of what I thought was my “religion.” But God is so much deeper than religion and tradition. I always thought the prophets, kings, men and women God called to set his plans out had it all together, that they had no problems and they had their lives set perfectly together. But God seems to pick those most unlikely to do something amazing to do something…well amazing. The thought of David depressed I had never really given thought to, but in the light of Kings message it actually makes so much sense. To be hunted by his own and by the enemy that will be a major tax on your mind and body. What a position to be in.
In light of what I have learned today, I have really been looking at myself and who I am as a person. I know I need Jesus, that is fact and truth and that will never change. But then there is the sin, insecurities, and nature of myself to take into consideration. I am sinful by nature, unfortunately I cannot change that, all I can do is try to live a Godly life and do the best I can, okay easier said than done. Insecurities within myself…lay them before the Lord and let him change my attitude, and perception daily through his word. And then the very nature of myself, personal plans, goals, wants, needs. These must change to correlate with Gods purpose in my life. All wonderful solutions to problems within myself. And yet on the other side of the coin I struggle with the fact that I don’t have many Christian friends, in fact I now know that the only “true” Christians I know go to Elevation, sure myself and my old friends called ourselves Christians but our lifestyle is far from it. I love God, but I struggle with the fact that I know God wants me to cut out my old friends, these people are not speaking life into me, the lifestyle I have led is self-destructive and destructive those around me, so in fact together we are pulling ourselves down. I know two years ago we weren’t acting the way we are now, drinking, the parties, sleeping around this is what we have become, and every moment longer in this lifestyle drags me further down into sadness, frustration, and of course emptiness. So this I have all come to realize today. But this past Friday, against my better judgment I went back up to
“You are no more worthy of His love on your best day than you are on your worst.” - Pastor Steve
Monday, November 19, 2007
Everlasting, your light will shine when all else fades
Okay so I grew up in a Christian home, I grew up in a loving family, and my parents were never divorced. I’m so thankful for what God has blessed me with, I cant believe how I let myself think that I was “entitled” to what I had, I cant believe I was so blind to these blessings, a warm bed, a roof over my head, fantastically gracious is my God.
So as a child I wasn’t very interested in church things. And in all honesty it sort of scared me, to see someone so consumed and on fire for God, and I thought, what must I do to be like that. I was a little jealous and I wanted to advance my own selfish ideas and goals for my own life.
But something that Pastor Furtick said that was quite profound to me was that “God saves us all at once, but we change daily.” And suddenly I realized that in order to be Christian I don’t have to be perfect, I just need to love Jesus and walk with him, sure I’m going to mess up but that’s okay, because his saved me. I know this may seem like a simple revelation especially to someone who grew up in the church, but I just didn’t think I knew what God meant when he said he loves me and that he is sending his son to save me. Because my whole Christian walk was based around how I just don’t want to go to hell. And then one day as I was listening to Hillsong’s From the Inside Out my heart was broken and I couldn’t help but cry out. And since then that song has become my anthem as continually/daily Jesus consumes me from the inside out. And my will to survive then became a love for God.
I once heard somewhere (don’t remember from where) that “people don’t respond to love, they respond to action.” And this bothered me, because love is the most powerful action you can take. Look at Jesus, in his love for us, he dies. And his action that he took against his enemies was “forgive them father” he loved them fiercely and he loves me so much he died. I can’t fully grasp this concept it is too much for my selfish mind. All I can do is walk daily with my father and king, and allow him to change me from the inside out. Thank you ALMIGHTY GOD.
- to love you, from the inside out - HS